It’s getting personal now
August 3rd, 2008 @ 8:22 pm

These past few days I haven’t been feeling so well. The flu is going around and I think it’s finally gotten to me. I have the early stages where it starts off in my throat then spreads around my system. Last night I went to bed at 12:30am but I couldn’t go to sleep straight away and this had to happen….

What I like about having this blog is I can be as personal as I want to, and this entry is one of them. It’s a glimpse of it. Honestly, I don’t really have a personal life. It’s non existent. I wasn’t exaggerating about that in my bio section, it does come out every now and then but not in the best light.

Before I go to bed, I never put my phone on silent because no one calls me at night so I’m not bothered with it. I’m tossing and turning in bed, then my phone rings and it was from this guy. Long story short, we have a complicated relationship/non relationship and him screwing up with my mind basically. I picked up the phone, looked at the time it was 2:01am. I answered it unhappily, he makes sexual noises on the other line and I hung up. I was supposed to go into the City for his 22nd birthday celebration at a club but I chose not to go. Therefore that phone call was a drunken phone call. A few minutes later, my text message ringtone goes off, it was from a number that I didn’t have and the message had a very “enticing” sexual come-on. It was probably from someone he was with, whom we both know and was using their phone. Then I get another one then I finally decided to put my phone on silent. When I woke up this morning, there was another sexual message sent a little bit after the last one. It made me so fucking angry because I ABSOLUTELY hate drunken texts and calls and I am always a victim of them, for some odd reason. Another reason is because I’m tired of this person’s antics, with his come-ons towards me when he FEELS like it. He’s hurt me a lot but I’ve grown up and I don’t need it anymore. Because I know one day, someone will treat me with the love and respect that I truly deserve. Guys around my age are douchebags. Period.

I woke up this morning, I probably felt worse than I did last night. I took two cold and flu tablets and I swear I was going to pass out. My dad made me take two instead of one because I’m no longer under the age of 12 like it says on the box. But nope, I can’t take it. I became too drowsy and sleepy at 5 o’clock in the afternoon. Never again. Although, good for recreational use. Hehe. I’m supposed to have taken them 20 minutes ago but I’m afraid if I do, I’ll pass out for 24 hours.

I don’t care if I feel like shit or on an IV at a hospital for the flu, I will be seeing Pineapple Express tomorrow. James Franco is unbelievably hot and I love his smile. It’s the most geeked-out smile ever. Hopefully it will be a good movie!

Plugs: Ciel, Shea, Simply Precious, Krissy, Kate, Kaz, Amarilys, Exene

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